Life.. and random thoughts

I had a few random thoughts today..

1) Sometimes I miss my old job.. I miss the friends I made, the work was interesting, and I had been there so long I could do the job in my sleep - which made me great at it and nobody could/would doubt my skills. True story. Then I have moments of clarity when I remember that my current job gives me a short day today, tomorrow and Friday off and December 24th - January 4th off.. PAID. That's right folks. I get a week and a half off, paid, for the holidays. Fantastic, right?!?

2) Obviously something happening to my family is my worst fear. There is nothing worse that I can imagine in life than losing one of them.. they are my entire life and I would probably just Poof.. up and cease to exist without them. That being said, my second biggest fear is being cheated on. To clarify, I don't believe for a minute that Anthony would ever do that to me. He's a great person and he wouldn't hurt me that way. However.. the thought of that happening makes me break into a cold sweat. Not the act itself.. but the fact that one stupid mistake would effectively ruin our entire lives and it would mean I would only see my son half the time. I would be reduced to a part time parent, through no fault of my own. That's just so tragic. I can't possibly imagine not seeing my little boy every day. My life as I know it.. the dogs.. house.. baby.. cars.. everything would change. I really love my life so that's pretty much the second worst thing possible.

3) When they show turkeys on the news this week.. I get a major case of guilt over the fact that I'm about to eat one. If I liked veggies, I would definitely move into vegetarian territory because I feel so terrible about eating meat. I actually feel bad and I think about how bad I feel as I eat it. However - I don't really like veggies.. so I'd be reduced to eating cheese, potatoes, corn and bread. This will definitely not help my weight loss mission.

4) I have been thinking about my dating history a bit lately. Considering I was with my ex-husband for six years and essentially moved on straight to Anthony for the last three and a half years.. I've managed to squeeze quite a few boyfriends into a short time. Sadly.. I've come to the conclusion that all but three people I've ever dated are completely worthless sacks of crap. I married two of the three.. so that's a whole lot of time wasting. That time would have been much better spent shoe shopping.

That's it for now.. have a Happy Thanksgiving everyone!